The topic for this blog is hope. I have chosen this topic because I feel that for myself and others it is one of the main things that keep us going and without hope things can seem pretty bleak. I think it is sometimes hard to have hope when they are suffering and I’m sure that we’ve all asked; “why is this happening to me?” I do not know the answer to that question; I do not know why bad things happen to good people. What I can answer in my own Journey of recovery is; everything I have been through has prepared me for where I am now and has allowed me to help people. It is my belief that whatever has happened to you or is happening to you; there is always hope. Because there can always be a brighter day. From my own experience I have been through many traumatic and tragic situations and at times I lost hope completely and turned to drugs and alcohol to numb the pain. One of the realizations I had during my recovery journey was that people genuinely do care. Why would I have hope for myself if no-one else does? At Gateway and I am sure at many other agencies, people care. I know this since I recently started with Gateway as a Peer Support Worker and I know how it feels on both sides, so to speak. I had a perception when I was very ill that people from Gateway cared a little bit but they didn’t really care about me as much more than just a person they work with. From the other side as a Peer Support Worker, I can tell you with all sincerity that the people at Gateway care deeply about the people in the Gateway community, both co-workers and people suffering. I think the reason I thought that people didn’t care about me was because I didn’t really care about myself. And this takes time if you have had a hard time, but once I started to care about myself I started to believe in hope and I started to believe that people believed in me. So what comes first; hope or self belief? I think both build on each other. What I think you need to know is you deserve and always have access to hope and/or self belief and the Gateway community is here to cultivate that for you. If you don’t believe you deserve it, I can tell you without even knowing you that you do, because every human being does, suffering or not. So this is the time in your life to reach out and take the first step to hope and self belief. The beautiful thing about hope and self belief is they are always there, even if you don’t think they are. So even if you lose all hope, I can tell you from my experience that if you open to it, it will always be there!
Not a very long blog today, but food for thought!
Love, Light and Happiness,